Make Me Whole

Sew me up, I can be your doll.
Stuff me with cotton and make me whole:
There's nothing inside except the hole.
My insides are on the ceiling, floor and walls.

I always wanna be especial for someone,
I've tried so hard and have been doing that so long.
But this has always end with me being alone.
I'm tired of this sh*t, I am down and I'm done.

Make me whole, fill me with some stuff.
Make me your sock or your knitted scarf.
There are so many non-healing scars.
I am full of sorrow like the sky's full of stars.

Make me a grain, I'll grow into a big tree.
I will treat you like a master and will love you for free.
I do not even know whom I wanna be:
That's just not important so much for me.

I just wanna be complete, nor empty nor frozen.
I am tired of doing choices, I just wanna be chosen.
I wanna lose nobody cuz I'm tired of losing.
I don't wanna play anymore cuz I'm only loosing.

I just wanna be unbroken, please, just make me whole.
There is nothing inside me except the hole.
You can use me if you wanna, I can be your doll.
I'm begging you: don't leave me, I don't want to fall...

28-30.05.2021