Happiness wallet

Why am I here, the simple question
As I remember when I was a child
Tormented me,  gave me obsession
What is the meaning of my life

And every trouble I've got over
Taught me to be more calm and strong
To save the only happy moments
Forgetting fails, avoiding wrongs

To make a choice became so easy
According to this point of view
Life has no any special reason
Just looking for something new

And every day brought me a profit
I had no doubt that I was right
I used my heart as common wallet
For happiness inside..

But there was something I have heard of
I guessed that thing should give me more
Much more than I could ever dream of
Love nucked at my door..

I felt elated face to face
I've dropped my armor let this in
But this was Pain here in my place
The thing that I let in..

It grows and flows inside my body
It eats my savings day by day
It made me sick, it drove me crazy
I want to pass away..

I know the pain will go away
When will this happen I'll start new way
I gonna share, I gonna share
Love never turn to Pain again