apostate

acceptance
habit
barely baited
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i felt betrayed,
but no betrayal it was.
such a loss,
waste of time to understand,
that everything was not it worth.

all i was fighting with and ever win
doesn't seem to be a real thing.
more like illusion i almost believed in,
within sincerity, that based upon sin.

for some reason it started,
by mistaken has to end.
it might be still the best
what we could've had.

i don't mind to left this unsaid,
act like we've never met.
so don't be afraid,
i can handle with my own bet.

all i have to accept
less than i could expect.
and if i feel that bad
why would i grow up
and search for my only (another),
i'm not even mad.
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find beauty in things,
that used to be disgusting.
fly instead of cutting wings,
never worried about nothing.

such a handsome, heady,
but a lot of years away.
"here i am already,
u can feel me, we can stay".

i remember this way,
now its not about today.
coz i see no hero
in front of mirror.