My Lost Memory

To you, Nick, I will tell Mermaid Story:

"Once she fell, damaging
Her wings of purity
She woke up in a warm water
Was it a dream or a reality?
Why, why, why, why?!
For what?!
Her Fall is a split,
Is it the Creator's will?
Her ocean eyes are
a metaphor for the soul.
Tearing herself in half
Losing her virginity

And the tears of pain down her cheeks.
That cry, that fear and that failure
Do you think it's easy to forget?
Her 2014? That year was like Apocalypse
For little 18-years lonely girl
How could she erase it from the memory?
She felt bad, she held on
if she'd been tortured and raped
But she became strong
She didn't break at all
 

Her innocence is trampled!
Humiliated, torn to pieces.
And the Father let this happen?!
Only He with Whom she hold her hand in life
Whom she trust and love
Who is in her heart forever
In Heaven he sees all things
It all was like a hard long
temptation from the Devil
To beauty of her purity and faith

She cried so much in the Church and prayed:
"Forgive me, Father, forgive me.
I have fallen. I can't fly like an angel
My wings are bleeding, my body hurts so much
Why should I live? And for what?
Someone I've given myself to forever
And I don't know, who he is.
I'm afraid of him... have fear of feelings
and I'm still waiting for...

When will he come and take me away?
When will he make me his wife at last?
He'll be there for me, he won't betray me
The dream burns for the last time
I see him again
His eyes and voice
His warm voice gives me peace
He doesn't know if he loves me yet.
He's like me and you
Doesn't believe in love
We're all lost in the Fairy Tale System!
We are all toys in Las Vegas,
boys ang girls

And my heart... Reaches out to him
My soul calls to
His soul.

And if we are to be together
Husband and wife
I would be free
From a Dark curse Knight
And he would be at peace
forever with me

And may be you and me would remain
At least as friends
I hope you'll understand me
And will go to my marriage

Dark-haired, blue-eyed, handsome as Romeo
You called me, shy Mermaid, "my joy"
And what have I got left?
That world in which we walk
with you, my darling friend,
without love and faith
Hand in hand... and burning in the glow
But it's not ashes and ashes, only Light
Where does the road lead us?
I believe, Nick, you know the answer
And you'll find yourself
in the System of "Paradise to Order"

No to feelings, no to beauty, no to goodness
no more value than money, no more glory
Most people live that way
But you and me
Are not of this Universe
And our Stars, they are out there,
The glimmer of them, the flight of the Planets
And the Sun that came down
From Heaven to Earth,
And melted the cold ice

Listen: "Later it will be easier for us
You're a beautiful soul,
you're a clever handsome man
Lost, broken, homeless
We both seek faith, home and love

The script needs to be changed
And we're not the directors at all.
In a dream, in dreams we found ourselves
Where you hold me tenderly in your arms,
like an angel kissing me
In time for Christmas
The lights were on,
That lantern was lit again
The road to the hospital was blocked
There's no cure, there's no cure, there's no cure
F63.9 - love (Cinema Bizarre "Blasphemy")
And who said such nonsense and falsehoods?
And as if from the last of my strength
I was healed by the warmth
that you gave me

In the spring time
I'll be waiting for you
As a friend only
"But this new spring
won't bring us back
All that we've lost"

Let's open the door to happiness again,
Forget the Hell we've been through
We're all tortured by our own selves Shows, Masks,
Performance, we're all actors
Liars? - Yes, sometimes. Like everyone else.
There's no alternative in this world
And there's no other way
It's only in the songs

And maybe... by finding each other again,
We can fly to the sky
Spring will come instead of the snowstorm
The spring that March 31st gave us
Your tender kiss
Made me forget everything...
It was as if I slipped and fell
Into that heat and flame
Desire unconscious to you

The power of passion
we won't let take over
How I miss you
Love will take its place
Calmness and tenderness
Making love is only pleasure
No more than that
When it's not with a person, whom you love
We both know this fact!
More important is the intimacy
not only bodies, but souls

We've both been betrayed, murdered...
Let us rise again to new life
And if Heaven is lost, we'll find it.
I believe... do you believe me?!


In the soul of that
Emmeline Lastrange
that at that time
at the age of 14-15
Seeing in the movie
"The Blue Lagoon"
Lost Paradise for
The beauty of love
That's the kind of love
I've always waited for
and I believe we all shall find
Just you and me


And there's a new Horizon ahead
The Road will be hard and thorny
Perhaps dreams will come true
And roses will bloom in every garden
The Rain will fall
And the Rainbow will rise up just for us
With you and me
 
I'll be a strong, beautiful soul
And finally wipe away
That film of pain, anger and misery

And then I'll sink again
To the wonderful "our 2007"
Where, as a child, we believed in dreams
Where we were true friends
Where we valued beauty
Where we never lost a second
Where we painted landscapes
Where we smiled and played the guitar
Where we were loved and appreciated
And why, through whose fault?
We've been so undeservedly
"We've lost it all?"




               

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                Mermaid Mary Lisa