92. The World of Lies

Staring at the starry sky above me,
Looking back at all the wrong I’ve done,
Realizing never I had one to love me,
Why were all my good intentions gone?

Understanding that my life heads nowhere,
Knowing nothing good I left on earth,
Why does all I touch turn to the nightmare?
Was my very life just living worth?

Can this all mean I’m a useless creature,
For there’s nothing that I leave behind?
Maybe I just didn’t have a good teacher,
Maybe all my life through I was blind.

Evil is what permeates the whole world,
Lying’s what they all use as a rule.
Strange, but of it never I have been told.
I was a young, unexperienced fool.

Soon I learned the value of deception,
I became one of those hungry wolves,
Stirring up no one’s love or affection
And acknowledging just my own rules.

Anyway, I can do nothing ‘bout it.
Days are numbered and the end is nigh.
I’ve to die, it’s true, I do not doubt it,
Tired of living in the world of lies.

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