54. Villain

I cannot fool you anymore.
Try t’ understand, girl, what I mean.
Oh please, don’t you shut your front door,
Though you don’t want to let me in.

Now there’s no more love in your heart,
It’s vanished like the morning star.
But I won’t take it in bad part,
For with my fraud I’ve gone too far.

I know I never loved you, girl,
‘Twas just a mad infatuation.
A pity that I never told
You ‘bout my disorientation.

I did not see that I hurt you,
I made you think that I did care.
You always thought our love was true.
Your love was, girl, but mine was never.

I was a scoundrelly son of a bitch,
I lied to you and you believed.
I must be hanged like a Salem witch,
And I’ve no right to be forgiv’n.

Yes, I was cruel to treat you bad,
And really I deserve to die,
For you must damn the day we met.
Oh Jesus, why was I so sly?

Now I just want you t’ hear me out,
I even will fall on my knees.
Forgiving I won’t ask about,
With you I want to make my peace.

And after that I’ll disappear,
You’ll never see me, girl, again.
Of bad thoughts of me you’ll be clear,
You won’t think I was a villain.

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