5. This World Is Not for Me

Every day I think I sleep,
But cannot wake up, oh God!
This wild world makes me crazy
‘Cause I differ from anyone.

And I need some good man’s care,
Someone’s understanding,
But all of them think that I’m
The most foolish man on earth.

Oh, this world is not for me!
Oh, someone help me!

I know that I need a friend
Who will cure my aching soul.
I can’t live like this anymore,
Everyone disappoints me.

Only the one of millions,
I think, can understand me.
Oh, how I need to find that man,
But I ain’t found him yet.

Oh, I don’t like my wrong life.
Someone help me!
Oh, this world is not for me!
Oh, just help me!

When I’m
Staying alone,
Loneliness to me
Is happiness.
I cannot live
Any longer this life,
But it seems to
Go on and on.

Maybe, I have
Got just wrong thoughts,
Incorrect dreams,
I do not know.
But life’s only one,
One must live it.
But how? It is
An unsolved question.

Autumn ‘94, 3.03.97