Curse or Blessing?

Are you my curse or blessing?
Who are you?
Given by God or sent to me by Evil?
Devil and I connected like those two
Who undividedly drank cups of fear.

We swallowed it without thinking twice,
Are you afraid of me?.. doesn’t seem real.
Nod in approval that you feel just calm...
Collected.... no way - lost, obsessed, severe...
 
“Composed natures” - not about us....
“Rebellious spirits” - what makes sense much clear.
I am a warrior of battles with no luck.
Luck is for losers. So, I prefer winning.

My dainty little hands keep you alive...
Guardian angel? Yes, I’m yours for real.
A noble slugger fighting for you much
I wish you cared more of what I’m feeling...

My nights are fitful... soon I might go daft...
Glittered with tears eyes look at you, silly...
I’m silly over you, I count “ducks”...
Which you do call up to the bed with meaning...

I was, I am, I will be your best pick.
Sometimes I am too overwhelmed when thinking...
I look for answers which I might not reach...
A graceful angel will fall, never drinking...

You are my wall. My love. My broken heart
With bullet holes inside causing just bleeding
My body covered with unseen wounds rough
Over betrayals...  “ducks”, beasts, trash you’re breeding...

What happened to a man I fell in love with?
I have admired your quick wit and mind.
You were so gentle, understanding, kind
But later you became nuts like a Freak...
Putting inside all whores your lovely dick.

Are you my curse or blessing?
Who are you?
Given by God or sent to me by Evil?
Lessons are taken.... but what will I do,
If heart is beating, nevertheless bleeding?



*ducks - whores with augmented lips.