Accolade

Demons in my head
Living so easy, chains with roots
Like drug in the veins
Poison of evil makes me rude.
Poison, honey... Sugar and pain wires my weak heart.
Closer... Funny! I got it. I'm on the fucking hardest part
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Of way of rehearsal to sing and scream about my anguish
Weak? Yeah, i am. So what? I can be myself and speak any language!
I'm so fucking tired of bastards who mocked me in my life all the time.
And i'm screaming about. Now. 'Cause I can't anymore.. Wanna speak. Cause I'm not fine.
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Previously, i remained silent
As the corpses are silent in the morgue.
My body was dying
While I was sitting away, looking at the storm.
Why? No fair! But now i can't hold back my pain.
Anger... Despair... Break out of my tongue instead of a friendly phrase.
Heed...
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Of way of rehearsal to sing and scream about my anguish
Weak? Yeah, i am. So what? I can be myself and speak any language!
I'm so fucking tired of bastards who mocked me in my life all the time.
And i'm screaming about. Now. 'Cause I can't anymore.. Wanna speak. Cause I'm not fine.

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How to get rid of your own demons?
No way.
How to awaken long-sleeping feelings?
No way.
I tried to fight the dark side, but became
Fade.
And being at the bottom, when i forgot even my name...
Soul said...
Late!
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My last way of rehearsal to sing and scream about my anguish
Weak? Yeah, i am. So what? I can be myself and speak any language!
I'm so fucking tired of bastards who mocked me in my life all the time.
And i'm screaming about. Now. 'Cause I can't anymore.. Wanna speak. Cause I'm not fine.
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When you lay by the stream
and hear an accolade
You dissolve, but still stay
Fade.