I cant let myself to fall in love again

My heart is cracked,
My heart is broken,
I don’t think I’ll ever trust
And only if I’m drunk and lonely.
I can pretend that I can love.

I can. But...
My brain won’t let me too.
And tiny thought about cupid feelings...
I’m smashed again!
I won’t let me too.
Let other people love and be hysteric.

I can’t let myself to fall in love again!
I’ll better live alone till death,
Among two cats, two dogs and everything by two.
In Russian, people show on you and say “Tu-tu”.
And will be right.
I’m cracked. I’m doomed.
Afraid to open up and trust to anyone,
And say one day “I love you too”.