Decisions

How often do we have to make decisions in life?
How often do we step to unknown paths?
How often do we choose to say NO ,
What is it that makes us to go?

How often do we promise to change our vision?
How often do we brake rules? I'd say, a four season.
How often do we fail? We prefer not to know...
How often do we follow instincts? Now and before.

What do we know when it comes to the answers?
What would we say if it was for a record
What can we tell? Would it be even a truth?
In my opinion none of us equal,Like it or not, it's easy to prove. )

Some people high, they are up above all
But their sensitivity very often is low.
My own background is middle-class.
I am always being judged by my ex the person who is a real ass.
Today I finally took a decision.
I don't want any longer to waste my time.
I am not timeless, everything has a limit.
Today I finally realized that I was leaving.

10 years passed so fast like a flash.
I was afraid to take action. It made me blush.
My youth and my chances are flashed in the loop.
I remember being happy when washed away baby - poop.
But even that was stolen from me...
I was left with no choice, any worse could it be?
My child was taken away by her father.
I was left with a happy one day, it is Sunday.
I continued seeing that monster...
He held TWO lives under control.
He had in his hands the greatest weapon.
I played by his rules...because he is mental.
I had to obey. I did not see another way.
I could not critically think anymore.
I got confused and also abused.
I was waiting for help. With any was left.
Today I took a decision; I got to do a final throw.
I take my Life back. From now on I control!
No matter how much I've to pay back.
I am women now. I already packed my bag!
(Now I know how to defend!!!)
Oxana Simonova (winter,2019)