Parental

When you decided to leave
I didn't ask to stay.
May be it was my failure
That could lead you astray?

You prefered to vanish
And to destroy all trust we had.
You refused to see me growing
And crying in my bed.

You just came back to square one
Without calling me with you.
Without saying that you need me.
I was a toy you prefered to lose.

Time was running fast,
Making our gap larger.
I couldn't imagine something like that.
I'd have called it crap and disaster.

But life can give tough lessons
And make you feel pain.
Was it worth the efforts
Or it turned to be in vain?

How many years have gone?
We're strangers just so.
We know each other's numbers,
But never gonna call, you know.

Sometimes I revise in memory
All the stories with you and me.
But they have already faded
And seem to be something unreal.

I don't wanna blame you.
Were the reasons to abandon us?
Nevertheless, it's hard to take it
And revive the trust.

Honestly, I am not sure
That this is what you need.
You have your life, another woman,
Another children are your creed.

Not going hold it all
Inside, watching, how it burns.
I've let it go already.
Each one gets what he deserves.

I wish you all the best.
Will you be happy? Rather!
Despite the past, nothing will change
The fact you are my father.