Calm me down or rise me up

Here's the only way I found.
And this one's the hardest one.
I'm not sure though I dont care
It's myopic. I aware..

Most of you won't understand.
I don't call a mate or friend.
No man ever follows me.
Why does this time has to be

An exeption? Such a fool
I was always. But It's cool:
Way I've chosed to walk along
Will make me free, calm and strong.

There's no way I heed to you.
Tell me anything - fuck you.
Kill me if you want me stopped.
Seest I just can not give up.

I did not decide that all.
I just feel it in my soul.
I CAN'T EVER CLOSE MY EYES.
I WILL ALWAYS SPOT YOUR LIES.

I admit the aftermath.
Of my own uncharted path.
I call Death come face to face.
I won't ever change my ways.

Take your shotguns strip your knives.
I will die. But I will rise.
Then I'll pray and drop the dice.
Differ terms of Sin and Vice.

I was drunk and I was high.
Now I've got clear opened mind..
All my lifes were fucking lie.
I want, Need, CRAVE, L O N G to die.

No, you won't see such a flight
From the rooftop. I shall fight.
I am might knight of the light.
And I clearly see what's right.










I refuse to take on trust.
I'll just do it, cause I must.
Let me know, LET ME know, guys,
When you open up your eyes.