have you ever felt like sun
how we get rid of this feeling? we usually run away from it. trying to cover it with some other feelings.
so, there was a day i felt like shit. and the only thing i wanted to do is cry. just because i needed to. i didn't know what was the reason or why, because the day before i felt good and definitely okay. so i called my friend and he told me we can meet in cafe near my house. so i dressed up and went downstairs to the cafe. he was already there, drinking cup of coffee and in front of him was a cup of coffe for me. so i sat down and started to warm up my hands with it, staring at the brown liquid. "what happened?" and i just looked up at him and said "i don't know". then i started to cry. again: because i needed to. so he just smiled and asked me "have you ever felt like sun". i'm telling you, i was staged. i was looking at him and thought "have i?" he smiled with teeth "you are so much of a sun, that you just had to rest and let the rain come for a while". "i'm tired" i said, and he answered "i know, i felt like this before. like shit. like there is something inside your chest that comes to your throat and doesn't let you be you" "exactly". i looked up at him and i felt good. he made me feel good.
"i love you"
"yeah, but you have to stop crying and let me kiss you".
i know this story is so much of original stupid things. but also it's a story of how my four hour depression was rescued by him. i still love him.
and the person who can make your shit-feeling GO AWAY is so much better than the feeling, that is opposite to the shit-feeling that can only COVER it.
seriously, find your person. it can be not a person for whole damn life, but it will be a person for the best days of it.
love always, me.
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