One day

One day I woke up and found myself
Stuck in the muddy and sticky sand.
I reminisced on the few of last days
It was me, twenty three, in a total disgrace.

I was old, quite enough, blinded eyes by the sun,
None of you near me, shattered windows of mind.
I was broken, was lost in the depths of despair
And the one that I loved didn't cry out my name...

I was thirsty and yet wasn't starving at all
But the hunger was growing though I didn't know
It developed my habits, the way how I thought
I was emptied, not full of.. the life. And you weren't

I was chasing our past, on the outskirts of light
But I didn't even think that attempts were denied
In advance! And of course it was squeezing me so
That I couldn't go far more than that. A tough blow...

Tore my hair..Gone wrong.. Then told you what it's like
To be mutual.. In couple.. Not single.. To fight!
You were all ears listening.. Saying after: "You're right"
Then we kissed and both melted, made love for the night.

But in some time, next morning, I opened my eyes
You were sleeping, so pretty.. So cute and were mine..
Then you got up, said words, well, in anger...
Again.. Then again...
All of them were beyond understanding of mine ones...
There's pain, but no gain...

I was standing bewildered.. And shocked.. For a while...
But too young and I loved you, I thought ""It's a lie!",
And I said to myself "Mate, you know how the time flies.."
"It's not real, things will change.. Just her way to disguise..."

But how naive, how dumb and how young I was then..
I was really sure that we were compelled
But no actions, attempts.. doubted me all the time.
I was scared so were you, awful loss of desire

Time has passed and I see how important
It's to give every doubt just the time
And with patience to let the story unfold
It's worth trying to work and to not let it slip...

15.06.2016