Falling...

If you really want to ruin your summer - fall in love ... ; Suddenly, you become completely weak when he smiles at you and if it makes you happy and light, and fearless - run!!!
How can you survive that waterfall of unconditional and uncontrollable emotions?!!!
Surely, you will know if it is a waterfall and you can see yourself falling and falling, and falling into the strong waters current, that will take you to the point of no return.
And you can't fight your own feelings, but you will continue struggle, because you do have all valid reasons in the World to stop yourself from that fall.

Can you see yourself flying?!
Can you see yourself smiling, giggling, laughing, "dancing in the rain", because he simply doesn't let you be sad or mad, or uncomfortable...
Any conversation with him makes you feel beautiful and think good about yourself and not only about him, which what you are doing regardless. You are in trouble sweetheart! Talking to yourself? Crazy enough... Of course you are thinking about him every day, every hour, every minute , every second. Obsessed and restless and completely drunk from your own happiness of illusion and this amazing fantasy as you are blind-naive-true-zombie-in-love.

You are falling... , but you are flying in your dreams when you see him. Someone said,  that when you see someone in your dream, it means that person is thinking about you. I hope to believe it is true.
I want to believe, that if you missed him, he missed you too, otherwise this summer will disappear like it never happened.
If he never misses you... , it would be even worse than if you are in love, but he is just not into you.

Maybe he is not interested or he doesn't even know that you have those feelings.
You have to stop it!!! Think of him just as a good friend with kind and warm personality, that he was never been in love with you in the first place.
  How would you know it?! Where is the love hides?!
Where is the sign of acceptance and approval of your rights to love him? How do you know if he will let you love him ? 
Where is that unlimited trust to a man starts?
"Think from the end" !
Well, but how can you do it if you can't predict anything? Maybe you should know how it will end, because it is your fantasy and you know what you wanted.

Human emotions always expecting romantics and surprises, but never want to think about the ending.
Maybe by thinking from the end, that you will be crushed and destroyed by your own feelings, it will help you to stop thad madness?!!! Are you really ready to give out your everyday routine life for just one person?! How can you be sure? When you love someone you don't think about such things, because you can't see barriers, anything is possible for you and you're sure that you can go through the walls!

Is it true that any relationships always expects sacrifices and full attention, because partially participants will never survive together? They will never stay for the long time, not even until next morning, because our feelings of being in love is too fragile, easily broken to the little pieces like a thin glass and can hurt each other hearts with the strongest pain in the Universe. Would you die for that kind of love?!! If you wiould, than never hesitate - live instead to love and love to be alive!