How Could I Hate You?

Now I’m lying in bed
Feeling myself ugly and sad
Million tears before this I’ve shed
And now this starts once again
Little step separate blade and my vein
How many nerves I needing
My soul, my heart and body bleeding
How I want to hate you in these times
But I don’t want do any crimes
‘Cause thinks about that way
It’s crime too
But I hurting myself all day
My mind is not O.K.
All these days running grey
And any shit I have to say
Won’t stop your mind anyway
Those tears are dropped to ground
I speaking with myself loud
Sun came under the cloud
Tears keep shedding out
I feel myself something without
How can you spend all day
With shit in hand
To God I have pray
But he probably don’t understand
For what were these pray
And now misunderstood in ocean of tears I lay!!!


CHORUS:
Mother! I miss you!
When at night time at home I can’t see you!
Mother! I miss you!
When my tears falls on lips!
Mother! I miss you!
When my soul in madness flying in deep!
Mother! How I miss you!
Can feel you my pain?
Alcohol runs in your vein!
Ohh Mother how could you!
I always forgive you!


Should I sit in room and wait
When my mind and heart feeling hate
Look on clock- It’s late
But you won’t come
My thought is fate
I’m crying in bed
I’m looking so sad
Mind is working tight
Is that something with you bad
Close my eyes and at nights flight
I fly through this hope dead
Is that something I can’t understand?
I give to you my hand
But you don’t want take it
And now I’m with tears on my face
I can’t win this race
I remember all of those days
And they will be in my mind
No rest from them I can’t find
All this doing all over me right?
Am I must be strong and fight?