Blasphemy

There've been a lot I have endured
Cut and then healed, poisoned and cured
I bear their hatred and they wrath
For days and years, knowing no trust

Ignited, beaten, drugged, abused
When I believed, I was just used
I suffered long, it's true, you know
But don't your hear, what they all howl?

"You called for that, you, sinful phreak
Punished because your faith is weak!
Admit your sins, atone your crimes!
And will forgive you Jesus Christ..."

My blood just boiled, eyes got bloodshot
So, all the pain, suffer I've got
They all because of some damned "God?"
You laughing at me, are you not?

So, tortures from one, who's above
Are those how he express his "love"?
So I should love, I should worship
Some kind of sadist, maniac, phreak?

Oh, no. You won't make me do that
I may be weak, but I ain't rat
Won't run away, won't hide in fear
Won't pray for him, shedding my tears!

Come on now, idol with no face
If you exist, you'll be erased!
Putting all anger in the scream,
I'll charge forward like a stream
That's just a whim?
I care not
Beware, God!

~Fikwriter