Lamenting Winds Of Solitude 28. 06. 04

   "...когда ты молчишь, я верю в одно:
      ветры... ветры... ветры... с тобой..."

          Lamenting Winds Of Solitude
        - to deserted essence of mine -

    "...You have not so many words to give to the silence
But there's a reason to take a look back for the last time
I know you saw the war and the ruin
And the darkness lives eternally in your aching heart
You've understood that love exist no more upon this planet
And only greed, hatred and lies
Overwhelm the souls of the moribund humanity
Nothing will change
The naive hopes do not trouble your mind anymore
I know you're tired
But the sorrow and the sense of bereavement
Will always stay with you
And your freezing loneliness will keep you grieving
In the arms of obscurity for ever and ever..."

                1.
The wings of night spread o'er the forest
To wave its goodbye to the age
'Twas not horrific but the sorest
Of all - the desperate life's stage
                2.
Your sanctuary is abandoned
Your fragile hope's forever dead
And just the misery's ascendant
Reigns in the realms from where you've fled
                3.
You're home. And these lands still determine
Your true religion. Here you stay
But the betrayers and the vermin
Loom in the distance on your way
                4.
You may ask Charon: "Take me over
Away from them - insane and lewd
My dark soul only wants to hover
Upon the wings of solitude..."
                5.
But he won't hear you from the river
Along which shore you rove and gaze
And his old boat - small like a sliver
Will vanish in the curling haze
                6.
...A time ago with no contrition
You buried Love and broke the dream
Because the image of Perdition
Defiled the things you did esteem
                7.
You cursed your frankness and your candour
But yet you always knew the end
Your sweet affection's lost its splendour
And now alone and sad you stand
                8.
Alone you watch the stormy weather
And miss your faithful friends in caste
Your order's priests do not foregather
No more. They don't recall the past
                9.
Your spirit flies above the canyons
And their slopes keep the arch decease
Departed are your best companions...
Allow them go and rest in peace
                10.
You heeded God, believed the seer
Whose visions touched your aching string
Your memories lie in the bier
Under the stone of suffering
                11.
The grimness is the road you've trodden
And there is Hell behind your eyes
The bitter sorrow is your guerdon
The laceration is your prize
                12.
You would remember you were taken,
Enthralled by passion but behold -
For all your life you are forsaken
And that state's natural for your world
                13.
There is no honour nor abidance
By any rules beneath your sun
The bringers of the heaven's guidance
Are gone and their fit is unsung
                14.
Into the shimmering horizon
The flocks of angels disappear
And the infernal demons rise on
From out the vaults of hate and fear
                15.
As they'll emerge, the Earth will shiver
With horror on the raging waind
You'll witness the return of Evil
And feel no pity to mankind
                16.
Your future's vague; your sky is tarnished
But none has sense of your design
What ever for you have been punished,
You will go forth your sombre line
                17.
The ills and torments are not ample
To stop the power of your art
It lights the candles in your temple
And heals the woe inside your heart
                18.
Your foes will call you Crazy Author
A loafer and a psychopath
Don't care. Your name is Blackened Water
And your verse rules the storms of death
                19.
The good is vain and unrequited
So, let your fate rot in its shell
Reality soon will be blighted
The farewell bells already knell
                20.
And when the stars shall burn the ocean
You by your fane's eternal shrine
Will face the CLOSE with no commotion
And say: "The retribution's mine..."