The Virgin At The Gates Of Hell 31. 10. 00

Prologos:

The loneliness as it is not so terrible
Really terrible - when you have no more power not only to change something,
But even to wait
Or just to exist...

   The Virgin At The Gates Of Hell 31.10.00.
         REVELATING INSANITY* IN 3 ACTS

                Act - 1.

                1.
The gelid winter wraps the spaces
With the oblivion's white veil
You're trudging to the awful places
To taint them by the freezing tale
                2.
The holy shades of inspiration
Are tearing up your stormy brain
From stony shell of isolation
They're venting out this wringing pain
                3.
The curse of woe to you is given
And since you hear its dismal bell,
You are the martyr of the eon,
The virgin at the gates of hell
                4.
You still recall your first affection
From far beyond it draws you back
The silence enters your direction -
To find the love and paint it black
                5.
Was that a dream? Unknown for certain
Its fragments cause the mental smart
Concealed behind the twilight curtain
Those days last only in your heart
                6.
And there - the coast where billows foaming
Roar underneath the ancient trees
And in the lenient summer gloaming
The lips merge in a tender kiss
                7.
There the divine Earth's slowly turning
And the serene stars in the skies
Are gendering the secret yearning
Reflecting in the beauty's eyes...
                8.
But what's out there? The warmth that's weathered
With the nocturnal torment's breath
And the grim wings of evil feathered
Like the prevailing brutal death
                9.
You mourn and falter contemplating
The ice-chained river -calm and long
But this eternal worthless waiting
Won't show the way to carry on
                10.
The bells of misery are ringing
Behind the leaden heaven's cope
Entombed by past, your faith's still clinging
To the evasive misty hope
                11.
The night's winds whisper: "Take your sorrow
And climb the high top of the cliff
Then jump downwards to meet the hollow,
Escape from your exhausting grief"
                12.
But you dare not make this decisions
The Exit's too hard to cognize
You simply witness the division
Between the happy and the wise.

                Act - 2.

                13.
You have obtained your new religion -
The art of loneliness and hate
The ghost of love's a sudden vision
Devoured by some faceless strength
                14.
You thought your life's already ending
But just the lucky die on time...
Your somber spirit weeps ascending
Above the land where reigns the crime
                15.
From this astrayal foggy season
Your lane leads to holocaust
But there's a clou to keep your reason -
The unknown's better than the lost
                16.
The doom flood's streaming to the ocean
Through these malignant dusky years
The fool moon wakes your dead emotions
And the black sun wipes up your tears
                17.
The iron bats behind your window
Sail in the incense's gray smoke
The sentries of the nightmare's kingdom
They call you out to join the flock
                18.
Nobody shares your desperation
Recurring with the mind-sick light
And merely in your creation
The heroes rise to ride and fight
                19.
But you feel - the destructive battle
Won't ever give you the reprieve
Your fate sealed by the heavy metal
Is all in which you can believe
                20.
So, even the inferno's master
Shan't bring you into your bright youth
You'll leave this world's depressing fluster
But never reach the perfect truth...
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                Act - 3. (Epilogos)

There's nothing can ever change this world
Only memories left in your crippled soul
They return blowing inside your inflamed mind
Like the gusts of the cold winter storm
Someone's saying that life just begins ...
You would like to run on the green grass
Towards the summer dawn
Or climb the high mountain
And let the fervent air play with your hair
You would like to fall asleep in the arms of a beautiful girl
But your world is penetrated by emptiness and the restless despair more and more swallowing your soul
You never thought about death
You just did not imagine it can come to you
Before you find the time to know real love and joy on this land
Even now you can't imagine it
But something's happening
Something that's killing a part of your heart forever
You can't understand how this may be possible
You're taking a look up and waiting for answer in the sky
But seeing just the leaden clouds over the earth
Dispirited by endless suffering
And at this moment you don't wish to live
Live in the dead world
Eternally looking back into the past in search of salvation
But never can find it there
In one time you had time and strength
To get everything you dreamed of
But you could not or did not menage
As you could not keep something you loved
From the fatal touch of death
And feeling her breath a few steps behind you
You're realizing that now it's really
Too late...
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*REVELATING INSANITY - Откровенствующее безумие (авторск.)