The new way

Wore a cold-hearted mask,
Mind was dark, now it's not.
Future brings me new task,
I myself twist the plot.

Looking in the mirror -
Is that really me?
Not anymore pure zero
From now on I shall be.

Nor hopeless, nor pathetic
Like I used to say.
Were a goddamn heretic,
Hell, no more blind fray.

Now an oldfag, yet a kid
Deep within my soul.
Shit, you never can forbid
To escape the control.

Brand new pace, old faces,
Yet no old disgrace.
You don't need no laces
To spot the different brace.

Wounds closed, nose high,
No rewinds from today!
Couldn't do stuff, sigh,
Now for me it's childs' play!

Still few things I regret,
Have to shout out loud
Or be my thoughts' pet,
Harsh or not it may sound.

I regret being mean
To the ones who care...
Should've always been
Nicer here and there.

I regret making bets
So obnoxiously wrong...
It's quite hard for me to stress
That their meaning's so strong.

I regret being weak,
Going hard on myself
Till' I have reached the peak -
Now that's off the bookshelf.

No regrets from today,
Clever mind, beating heart's
All I'll need for my way -
Way of new Alex Cart.

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Sorry for the rhythm flaws, intended to be a song.