Where is my life ring?

I feel the pain, I almost died.
You shut the door and turned off the light.
It's dark, and it's hurts me...
I know that I don't worthy of You, agree?

But if we meet I'll tell You everything, yea...
I fell in love With You from the first second...
I didn't want to say it but I decided to stay,
With tears in my eyes I fell...
Unfortunately this feeling is secund.

Nobody asked me and I said nothing to anyone...
It pains me that I love You...
You are a part of my life,
You are so beautiful...

And now I have removed You from everywhere...
What's going on? Days come and go...
And You probably love her...
Forgive me for my affection. Such woe...

But I'm not crying -
This poem is my tears.
This poem is only for You...
I never forget You... Even through the years.

It is useless but my brain
Cannot agree with my heart!
You know I'm ashamed of my heart...
I never lied to You, and will not! Apart...

To someone else who do it...
I gasp at this thought!
I stopped halfway in reflections...
No, I cannot go away from here though I with me faught...

There is no change...
Here I am helpless, I cannot do anything...
I'm trying to go with the flow...
Where is my life ring?