Fear

I had that this whole month, wasn't sleeping, digging inside my self, working a lot, went to a lot of meetings just to figure it out, why I still have all this problems in my head, been sober a year, and it come to me, it's not about how long we are clean, it's about our mind been poisoned by addiction, and we need to stop believing when our mind lies to us, but focus on our hearts, and that's where God is talking what to do, and everytime I did something from the heart, I felt a lot of fear doing that, but next day felt relieved from that fear, I am not completely free from fear, there are still battle going on inside of me, but I really believe that God can heal us all, and he does thru all this trials and we went thru in our life time, it's ok to be who we are, God loves us anyhow, and people love us, they just overfilled with their own problems to help others, but it's ok, all the help comes from God and His everlasting Love...