Re-incarnation, is it there?

When asked myself many years ago: to which answer is most important to me, again and again it came back to the Re-incarnation.
My scientific mind refuses to accept things unquestionably without understanding or feeling. Another word, external remains external to me; I need the internal knowledge, which becomes a part of my experience. Then, I can speak from that experience.
My mind is always opened but it is not the same as just accepting on a belief.
Re-incarnation is the central subject have encountered in life.
Why?
If there is reincarnation, then, I see justice and sense in life and what I and others go through. Cause and effect: karma rule existence by strict rules.
Then, if learn those rules, comprehending them to the core, I can lead my life without doubts, as anything else becomes trivial.
If there is no Re0incarnatioin, then, nothing makes sense to me.
Just doesn’t make sense that some people live like pigs and outright criminals and get what they want and others suffer, sacrifice, do good, and in the process, usually taken advantage of the former clan of immoral folks. And then what?
Then, the same end: body disintegrates into simple molecules, which help to form other molecules and even life but, if the consciousness or, let’s go a step further, that something central which makes a person that individual and unique person – SOUL I s just a product of brain activity, then it seized its existence with death of brain and all are equated by death.
Just the same result for a saint and worst criminal after the last heart beat.
That seems so unfair and just disgusting to me that can’t find words to express such injustice in life.
What moral, what right and wrong if all get the same, regardless of how lead their life?
Why in the world to be born in the first place?
You live, time flies in such strange pace that it seems you just were a baby remembering your first childhood experience and you are here now, at this age and time, as tine just flew.
So what’s the purpose of being born when you try your best, deprive yourself of some easy opportunities because believe they are immoral, try to live decently, well, at least try, and then just drop dead. And maybe buried next to someone who just did the opposite and did whatever was convenient to him or her.
And, now, are equal and the same dust?
Disgusting!!!
If i could remember my past life or lives, would be the end of dilemma, as karma would make perfect sense: you suffer consequences till correct errors of the past and lay right ground for future re-birth i.e. Re-incarnation.
I could go on and on but the bottom line is simple:
At least what I feel. FEEL because it is not a belief in my case; it is not personal knowledge.
It is s subtle feeling: veeeeeery thin, veeeery quiet, and veeeery remote but it is there nevertheless and I hear its whispers.
That something inwardly tells me that, even, if there was no reincarnation, no morals, and they are only set by people themselves, depending on society and time, it is, still JUST and RIGHT to do the right thing and follow morals, as they, are definitely, imprinted in our heart.
No one have to tell me anything but I can see and feel, when really, wish to do that, what is fair and what is not.
The basic principle: do onto others what wish upon yourself, still, makes sense to me regardless of reincarnation or not.
That inner voice tells me that I would be wrong and unjust not to follow morals.
Since I hear that voice, even though, not giving me any tangible proof of reincarnation, is inside of me not pushed by outside force, I choose to follow it regardless of the outcome.
I just feel that is the right thing to do and the rest is beyond my control and knowledge at this time.
When, I would get in very high regions during Sacred Ceremonies “Meditations” I would try to tune to that frequency and experience what would unveil, as have seen and felt amazing things already during such meditations.
But, since those regions demand so much cleansing and purity at that stage, I am patient to keep trying but waiting till the able to tap in.
My philosophy is simple: could not tap in, did not see, or realize yet? All fair: not ready, not pure enough to go through those, subtle regions. So, don’t blame anybody, including yourself or anything and work on yourself till can rise to the needed level.
Meanwhile only re-incarnation makes sense of living and living it right, if fairness and justice to be retained.