Abyss Of Despair

Sometimes I think that during all my life
I've been running in an endless tunnel.
I'm sick and tired but still can't see the light.
My wandering seems to be eternal.

I go one way and meet an obstacle,
Try to turn back and run against the wall.
So losing faith I'm walking in a circle.
My fate plays me and makes me fall.

I fall, stand up and run again.
Run straight ahead but destination is unknown.
It makes me feel despair and pain.
My last chance to survive is gone.

The ghosts of past are chasing on my way -
The scary memories that I'd like to forget.
They frighten me and try to lead astray,
Remind me of my deeds and make regret.

All the misfortunes make me change a lot -
My heart just feels regret and misery,
Veins filled with poison boiling hot,
Thoughts full of pain, expecting tragedy.

My will is taken for my sins.
That's it - the story of my life.
I realize NOW what it means -
I am alone in my sacred strive.

2005