Stop torturing

Stop torturing my mind and my yearning body,
Kill these intrusive thoughts of precious you,
Relishing your love is like dipping fingers into honey,
Hearing your voice is like harmonizing with amazing tunes.

I blow you kisses but they don`t fly away,
I write you letters but they remain in my table drawer,
Without you my days have turned in hues of gray,
I never saw you but still you`re most treasured to the core.

I wanna tear myself from gloomy thoughts and suffocating fears,
I run away from sunny days in blackest moments of dusk,
It seems I lived without you in vain so many years
And wore a carefree pretender`s impenetrable mask.

I feel your breath though here`s only subjugating silence,
I see your dazzling smile shimmering like sunbeam on the wall,
These tears on my cheeks fall down on floor like precious diamonds,
I feel myself like dressed to kill unnecessary porcelain doll.

I love you so much that scream of soul is bursting from inside,
I clench my fists and stare at the empty ceiling,
Enwrap myself in woolen rug imaging you hug me so tight,
Protecting me and filling life with vital meaning.

I thrust my nails into snow white bedsheet,
I`m searching for oblivion for at least one hour to fall asleep,
I plead for mercy not to melt like ice-cream in the heat
Or not to drown in the raging ocean of tears so deep.

Stop torturing my battered mind day and night,
Alleviate my pain, come from fairy-tale in my real world,
Be the sun shining up above me soft and bright,
Be the God-sent miracle to cherish and behold.