I m losing you

I cannot grab your hand
And squeeze you tight. I can't.
I'm losing you again
Now in another man.

I look into your eyes
And see you fly away;
I listen to your thoughts:
No, you don't wanna stay.

I want to run for you
And beg you not to leave.
But I don't say a word,
No more I'm on my knees.

I know that soon you'll come
With different face and name,
You'll touch upon my heart
And it will start again:

Those days and nights I wait;
And weeks that I don't sleep;
Those texts I don't get back
And calls I don't receive.

You'll try to seem brand new,
You'll switch your voice and age,
You'll learn a coupla moves.
But still you'll never change...

You come in different ways
But after a short while
You hit the road again,
You leave in same damn style.

Each time you hurt me more,
But weird as it feels -
My every letting go
Gets easier for me.

With every step you make
You're fading to my past.
Me drawing on the sand
I wipe off all the dust.

I'm losing you again...
And I have certain fear:
One day you'll call me back -
But I won't even hear...

May, 26, 2009 - June, 2, 2009.