If I knew

dedicated to Nick Cave


When I saw her she was real goddess - not less.
Who was she? No one told. I could nothing but guess.
She turned back, showed me face and went far from the sight.
I had nothing to do with her tender eyes' light.

When I saw him my soul was unusually wild.
If I knew how it looked I would not show "inside".
He made me feel so bad that I knew what was pain.
Such a poison in blood. I'm becoming insane.

In three days we came close.
I believed in a beautiful lie.
In other was I'd chose...
But the answer's all beauty must die.

At the first day she was a girl from paradise.
Never met so much cold. Never opened your eyes.
And the wish to be hers came so suddenly! God!
She is perfectle nice. She's from stories mum told.

At the first day he came in his frightening way.
If I knew what to do... I remember my sway.
Such a poison in blood. What if it was not true?
I'm becoming insane. Mama, what should I do?

In three days we came close.
I believed in a beautiful lie.
In other was I'd chose...
But the answer's all beauty must die.

As the second day came I went out to the shop
To buy orchids for her and I knew I'd not stop.
She was closer to me than I could ever see.
And I knew that forever she'll be here with me.

As the second day came orchids were on my bed.
If I knew... If I knew... I would change all I had.
In the evening we met, Devil's eyes made me cry.
He attracted me more. I don't love him - it's lie.

In three days we came close.
I believed in a beautiful lie.
In other was I'd chose...
But the answer's all beauty must die.

And the last, third day came. I decided for both.
If today she's not mine she will feel her worst loss.
So she came. I should stop. She's victim of her fate.
She's so beautiful. Death seems so crazy and great.

And the last, third day came. I don't want it to end.
I feel nothing but love. No! My soul was lend.
Our last kiss. I'm in water and river's not deep.
I am his. He is mine, but I'm deadly asleep.