I Come To Oneself

sightless (blindless), what do you want?
cast is a glance at vacuum.
consciousness (senses), keep my ideas
to your sanctum.
somnambulist (lunatic), are you lost
in these yellow walls?
boundless (endless) was harden at frost
and crushed, when fallen.

it"s horizon,
it"s my reason.
my mind reflections, (but not)
in this season.

hourglass (sandglass), your sandy rain
fills up my eyes.
looking glass (mirror) is a curved glass,
but you are wise.
wasteland (desert), tumbleweed,
steps of caravan.
experience (tentative) of my wondering
is just a big fun.

it"s horizon,
it"s my reason.
my mind reflections, (but not)
in this season.

i said itself to myself: "find potency!".
i must come to oneself.
desire to live seized me.
i do not want more dwells.

i want to get out, even if i"m surrounded by lie...

i do not want, like a deaf man
to be eavesdropping the silence.
i struggle like a sightless fights
against the blindness.
eye to eye and dust to dust:
it makes no difference.
my point of view on these events
is a deliverance

in my freedom
and convictions.
i"m release
from restrictions.

1998 г.