These tears To a child

These tears, they had been in my eyes for so long
Though I am not the one to blame
I feel the quilt
I’m not as strong to think of this
Yet I think it over every day
And when the candle burns down to the ground
The dawn will come, despair will subside but she -
I won’t see her in my heart any more

Long time ago I had this place I called my own
The shore of granite at the Northern Gulf
Where I could weep, where I could speak out all my rotten fears
The sound of waves which cured any pain
I cannot return there nowadays – it’s gone,
There is a garbage where it’s used to be
Same garbage in my soul today…

‘Twas only once the wall collapsed and I
I found myself inside a golden stream of light
Like millions golden bees that stung my flesh
‘Twas burning deep then I just ran away
That’s how I knew that love still does exist
That’s how I felt a presence of the Lord
And saw the glory of my screwed-up human race
But I don’t see it nowadays at all…

For all I see is this small candle on the ground
It's dark, my eyes are fixed to trembling flame
I know that soon the day will break, night will subside
But still have fear not to see her in daylight

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Oh if I only knew
That she is saved
Yes if I only knew
There’s something past the grave
I would not be afraid
Like I am now

Somehow
I would have left behind the memory
Of frozen yellow sand and metal sound
And cigarettes in young and trembling hands
Of accidental friends
So frightened by unknown

I would have known
That sad-eyed angel
Finally has reached his land
And
There will be an end
To suffering and grief

I’ll be relieved
Oh so relieved…