I Have

I have beginnings with no piece of joy
My endings are of no searing pain
 have I a thing just to destroy?
Or have I anything to gain?

 No any traces, let they’d led to fire
Or to the stuffy and involved maze
Or let my tears are…let they streaming down
But I am laughing as I see no trace…

My sobs would be appropriate here
I laugh instead…why do you, silly heart
Keep silent? I have little fear
 That you have neither scars nor cut…

You are not heavy, have no any pang’s hint
Make no disturbance anyhow
You just betray me, you fall quickly asleep
Before I do…And I am feeling down.

I feel the void. still I’m not so scared
The only thing that’s really frighten me
Is loathsome poison, that has cheeky dare
To linger on my lips with ease

When I wake up at night perhaps to find
Myself in totally wrong place left to my own device
Or do you want me listen to my mind
Being dumb and deaf to you, my heart of ice?