Чувства лгут и нас калечат

может я тебя любила?
или всё-таки жалела?
но сказать не торопилась
на свиданья не спешила

я пыталась осознать
что нас в жизни ожидает
всю себя скрывать от всех
я старалась.
получалось.

* чувства лгут и нас калечат:
выгрызая изнутри,
овладев душой и телом:
зажимают как в тискИ.

думаешь, что нет любви
лишь расчёт и секс от скуки
знай что в сердце нет тоски
от тоски сжимаю руки

понимать тебя хочу
различать и постоянно
потому как больно бьют
если счастье не принЯлось:

наш росток прибит к земле-
бурей жизни переломлен
но любовь, что предстоит
станет новою любовью

улетят, растаяв, прочь
горечь и невзгоды жизни
слёзы сохнут на щеке,
сердце оживает в боли.

нам любовь та принесёт
море счастья. вслед за горем
изменения черёд:
жизни тайну вскоре вскроем.

и душевное стекло
превратится в свет хрустальный:
так ожившая душа
светом счастья воссияет
 
перевод под эл-регги:

Feelings lie and cripple us.

[Verse 1]
Did I love you, deep inside?
Or was it just the pity I tried to hide?
I never rushed to say the words out loud,
Never hurried to the dates we’d never keep around.
I tried to figure out what life had in store,
Tried to hide my whole self from the world once more.
And I did it well—I kept it all concealed,
Yeah, I made it look like nothing was revealed.

[Chorus]
Feelings lie, they tear us up inside,
Gnawing deep, where no one sees the pain we hide.
They take control of soul and body, night and day,
Clamping down like a vice—no way to break away.
Oh yeah, feelings lie, they cut us to the bone,
Leaving scars no one can ever truly own.

[Verse 2]
You think there’s no real love, just cold calculation,
Sex to kill the boredom, pure transaction.
But know this: my heart holds no bitter sorrow,
Even when I clench my fists against the hollow.
I want to understand you, read every sign,
Catch every shift, every change in your design.
‘Cause it hurts so bad when happiness won’t take,
When the dream you built just breaks before it wakes.

[Chorus]
Feelings lie, they tear us up inside,
Gnawing deep, where no one sees the pain we hide.
They take control of soul and body, night and day,
Clamping down like a vice—no way to break away.
Oh yeah, feelings lie, they cut us to the bone,
Leaving scars no one can ever truly own.

[Bridge]
Our little shoot got pinned to the ground,
Broken by the storm that spins all around.
But the love that’s coming—it’ll be brand new,
A different flame, a brighter view.
The bitterness will melt and drift away,
The hardships fade with each new day.
Tears dry on the cheek, the heart starts to heal,
Awakening through the ache, feeling what is real.

[Verse 3]
That love will bring us oceans full of joy,
After the sorrow, after all the noise.
Change comes in its turn, life’s secret unfolds,
We’ll crack it open—the truth untold.
And the glass that held our soul’s soft glow
Will turn to crystal light—you’ll see it grow.
A soul that’s waking, shining from within,
Radiating happiness, letting the light begin.

[Chorus]
Feelings lie, they tear us up inside,
Gnawing deep, where no one sees the pain we hide.
They take control of soul and body, night and day,
Clamping down like a vice—no way to break away.
Oh yeah, feelings lie, they cut us to the bone,
Leaving scars no one can ever truly own.

[Outro]
Yeah, feelings lie… but the heart learns to rise,
Through the vice and the bite, beneath the skies.
We’ll find the new love, let it shine so clear,
Turning pain into light—that’s what we’re here for, yeah.