Russian bama

No, this is time to reveal the truth, though I really don't like this honesty
It's so damn hurtful to get back to earth, when you thought you were close to heaven
I'm afraid of every fail, I wish I could wash my memory off. Clean up every tragedy.
Let's be true this time, taking the crown off, it's time to be back from sailing.

It's time to accept the basics, where's the mirror, that stranger on it
Is somebody I thought was great, but discovered it's simply me
Help me, that empty dreaming never hits glory, I always worry
That melody could be symphony, but it's unfortunately incomplete

I say "F it, shit on it", Forget it. Who cares people see me like zero
Who cares I thought I'm on top, now leave me with my own soul issues
Everybody makes fun of me, fine, even though I thought I'm a hero
Cause sometimes you think you're an album while you're just separate pictures

If you think that you nailed me, you're right. I might get more stupid, I swear
Winner, oh collect your respectable ass now, and please be gone right away
In here, my stinky block home, I'm extremely excited, don't wanna dare
You live in some big city, I live in shit, doing freaky things, here I stay

If someone will be that psycho enough to ask me some questions
Well, what its like to be that weirdo who's non stop producing drama
I say "go to hell, dude", cause this mess takes too much patience
Well, what'd you want from me? Me I'm just Russian bama