Never betrayed

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It was you, who I wanted to destroy,
But it turned out I couldn't fight.
Being against everyone is what I enjoy,
But in this way I hardly light.
There is so much to go through,
You have to stay till the end.
I promised to be true
Because got tired to pretend.
I never have myself betrayed,
Maybe, this is why people don't want to
deal with me.
Who else stayed
In this madness like this?