Handwritten stating

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I simply wanted to fall apart
From the crowd where I don't fit.
But again,there must be new start,
However now,my soul knows only to bleed.
All in all,
I see myself going down.
I slowly fall
To the stage where I am unknown.
Still,there is something to behold
And I am looking at with suspicion.
My soul is never sold,
I am doing my mission.
Who knows where this will lead?
I got enough of waiting.
Hope,there has left nobody to beat
My handwritten stating.