I wish we met before –
Briefly, meaningless and sweetly –
just like you’ve also said.
Like flickers dance spastically in a night
and disappear at sight of a first light.
I was running away from myself to nowhere,
Not willing to make decisions,
Hiding and lying for self-preservation,
protection from all the things others could not understand…but you do.
I wish when I was drowning in the loneliness and dullness,
you weren’t there to pull me out with your warmth, kindness and hope.
I wish I've never known that there is someone
who sees what I see and feels like I do.
I was happy in my misery,
happy in my ignorance that it was as good as it gets.
Not matter how much I’ll try to deny and try to forget
you will remain in my jungle mind with a special place to hold.
Keep dreaming as you deserve all the happiness in the world
And you will be happy without our long nights
and role games which were meant to protect us from 'us'.