I can t

I can't behold it any more.
I can't.
I can't believe the closed door.
I can't.
I can't remember, can't forget.
I can't be living in regret.
I can not breathe without you.
I can not know what is true.
I can't accept your life without me.
I can not live, or sleep, or move, or see.
I can't hold on. I can't but cry.
I can't believe you left me a "goodbye".
I can't be still. Can't stir. I can not live.
I can't forget my heart - I want to give.
To give to you. Forever. What a gift?!
I can not live without you. Like a thift
On solid rocks...
                I can't.
                I can't.
                I can't.
I whisper this like it could be my chant
That will return you. That will let you see.
That You Can't live your life without me.

23/12/2015