l learned a lot of usefull things while making proper love:
to love alone and stay alive and every day survive,
to trust your silence, trust your grief and overlook the facts,
to switch the hopes off and send in mute heart-breaking text,
to fly in nightly dream to you to feel in night defance,
I can have no peeve on you, I can not take offence,
and so on... and more I might... I learn... I do... I can...
but still I'm crying every night - I want to have your hand
in mine...