Undercover blues

Васильев Михаил
Felt like an alien
Since barely five.
Theese shores are barbarian.
Spent here all of my life.

When all of that started
You needed the one
In this country, uncharted,
For a job to be done.

You needed somebody
In enemy's rear.
Days were gonna be bloody.
So, I told you: i'm here.



    Beg you, whenever
    You feel the need in your spy,
    Please, just remember:
    Here am I.


Was warned 'bout a danger,
Considered as fit.
Been always a stranger,
Had in training no need.

No matter what I meant,
Taking part in your fight
Was to wait for assignment
Till the moment is right.

To be undercover,
To wait for a sign,
Concealing the power.
The pleasure is mine.

    Beg you, whenever
    You feel the need in your spy,
    Please, just remember:
    Here am I.


Pictured this story.
Imagined it clear.
My death or my glory.
No weakness, no fear.

No doubts, no pity.
It feels like the fate.
Lay siege to a city -
I'll open the gate.

You trespass the border -
I will hide your trail.
Give me an order.
I'm not gonna fail!


    Beg you, whenever
    You feel the need in your spy,
    Please, just remember:
    Here am I.


Asked for a mission,
Asked for a task.
Wasn't given permission
Even to ask.

Was told that's not easy:
To wait for who knows what.
Are you really that busy?
I just think you forgot.

So, I'll wait till december.
I'll wait till july.
I hope you remember:
Here am I.


    Beg you, whenever
    You feel the need in your spy,
    Please, just remember:
    Here am I.


No errands, no answer.
Days add up to years.
Consumes me like cancer.
Brings me to tears,

Do not even know,
Who looses, who wins.
One word from you, though -
And I'll spread my wings.

I don't ask for a target,
For a way or a course.
It's important, but fuck it:
Let me know, I'm still yours.

    Beg you, whenever
    You feel the need in your spy,
    Please, just remember:
    Here am I.



When this war will be over,
If there is such a day,
You will make me an offer:
Home, without delay.

You'll tell me how grateful
You're for service of mine.
With the loyal and faithful
I'll be put in a line.

Years of waiting for nothing,
Years of silence and fear -
You will make them rewarding,
Saying: glad you were here.


    Beg you, whenever
    You feel the need in your spy,
    Please, just remember:
    Here am I.