Again all my feelings are troubled,
And pain will not say “It’s enough”.
My tears at night will be doubled –
I know I’m forbidden to love.
But you’ll never see any sorrow
Or shadows of a desperate soul.
You’ll find neither weakness nor horror –
I perfectly act “happy” role.
The light in the darkness is fading,
I hear sad songs of the rain.
I try to seem brave and elating,
Inside – heart is split by a pain.
Inside – all my dreams became ruined,
Inside – all the waves will not still.
I say to my Fortune – “So do it!”
Surrendering to her selfish will.
So what is the purpose of living,
When you must be cold, even rough?
My heart is a dungeon for feelings,
My heart is a prison for love.