.............................To C.J.
I would like to die without killing,
I would like to live without lying,
But to love another human being
Through the fights, through days all spent in crying…
I would rather lie down on the ground
And forget the world, and leave the mind
So that I’d be lost and never found
By the grief and fear of mankind.
I would rather be a little puddle
Than a large one full of thoughts and tears…
I would live my life, boring and subtle
But without these all-remembering mirrors…
I would like to love without hurting
I would like to talk without speaking…
Though my heart is screaming and revolting
From its most embarrassing self-pity…