When I don't realize what I achieve
And silently I look around this place
To see the sight of what would I believe -
I always find the truth I cannot face,
And thinking of one a good day to leave -
My time has left no trace.
It always means the same, it always ends the same,
And no one ever could it understand:
With a quiet evil I watch the final of the game,
For my bad omen's never out of hand!..
Creation of my inner pride and fears -
That's mine belief! - it always will be here, -
It makes its justice and it reigns upright
And serves to destroy all that I have tried...
(written somewhere in 1997)